What's keeping me from gaining?

In the past, family pressure, potential health problems, and sheer expense have driven me away from my desire to become what they call a superchub—but it's always only been a matter of time before it's come back.

So why am I not actively gaining now?  Well, here are the reasons:

1. SSI

Right now I'm taking college classes to lead to a better job.  I am currently on Social Supplemental Income (SSI), which pays between $600 and $700 a month.  I depend on it because of my difficulty holding a job, but of course I avoid a lifestyle of poverty only by living with my parents.  If I moved out right now, I would, as someone put it, make just enough to keep me alive.  But I am well above average height, so it may not even be so.  Naturally, this would interfere with the ability to buy extra food and larger clothes.

2. Disneyland

Yeah, I'm a sucker for Disney and my big goal for next year is to go back and revisit attractions that I've either never experienced or would like to try again after being overly apprehensive, as well as all the other staples. (Man…I haven't been there since I was 13…hopefully they're all still open.) It seems to be relatively rare that you have to be under a certain height (which mostly applies to kiddie rides anyway), but it's fairly common that people have been rejected from rides or experienced injuries for being too wide.  In fact, they had to build stronger boats for It's a Small World because one buckled and the patrons sank.  During my Los Angeles stay, I also plan to go to Six Flags Magic Mountain just to say I've been on many really intense rides—for what, unless things turn out otherwise, will be the last time I will be capable.

3. PE for GE

After I finish my current certificate, I plan to get the degree I really want: an associate's in Instructional Assisting—Special Education.  As anyone who's been to college knows, a certificate only requires the most relevant courses, but a degree encompasses general education, which no doubt includes an admittedly easy PE class.

The idea of getting as big as a cartoon character still sounds good to me, but I won't pursue it until I've taken care of these three things.